Diarrhea of the mind.

Everyone strives to make money, but fails to really understand why they're doing it. People go to school in order to become something that will rake in the money, and not to study what they actually want. I just wanted to say that for some reason, don't really know why.
I completed my first album ever today. I went for twelve tracks, which I think is a pretty decent number. It's funny because I don't think that I can play the songs I wrote myself! I think I'm going to have to work on that tomorrow, cause I feel as if I should be able to play those songs wherever, and whenever. This night has now officially come to and end, and I can't wait to go to bed and read a little bit from my book. That's also another thing I need to work on, reading. Haven't read a mind blowing book in forever. Hopefully that will change over the summer. The one thing that kind of sketches me out is that possibility that I might not be writing as many songs over the summer. Actually, I just realized that I probably will be doing just that when I'm working at my dads restaurant.
You know, cause when there aren't any customers, it gets pretty boring.

My friends.

Another night has come to an end, and I feel as random as ever. All the things are happening at the drop of the hat, and I don't think I like it. I mean, I used to be a spontaneous person, but I think that being in college has changed that. I like being in my room doing nothing, even if I say otherwise. However, I wouldn't be doing much anyways in my room, at least not at this point in my life, so I guess doing other things is better than nothing. I am losing precious writing, and recording, time though.
I forgot how good it feels to have friends, to have someone to talk to about your problems. Even if you're not that close, it still beats having all of the things that trouble you locked away in some part of your psyche, having it eat at you.
You know, cause it just sucks.

Rise and shine!

Note to self: REMEMBER TO CALL THE GREEK CONSULATE, GO TO THE BANK, ORDER THE GUITAR, DO THE FIRST QUESTION ON THE PHILOSOPHY FINAL!
Ok, now that that's out of the way, I just want to mention a few things. First of all, my girlfriend is not pregnant. She's just having her period really, really late. Secondly, the more I start to hang out with these new people, the more I go to bed late, and the lazier I'd get. I just need to start doing more things. Say no for a change, you know? And I really, really need to get done with some songs, writing wise, and recording wise.
You know, cause I have more than a few unrecorded.

Tick, tock.

Every day, I keep on going to bed later, and later. I really need to buckle down, and finish off my philosophy paper. I mean, really. I should have it done by the time this week is over. I guess I have to anyways. I don't know what's going on with me lately. I think it's the fact that I made some new friends, and my old ways are coming back to me. I always try to be around msot of the time, even if it takes away precious hours of my day. I should stop putting others before me. It's not healthy, and it's not going to take me anywhere. I think for tomorrow I'm just going to finally finish a song I have been prepping for, and write up the first third of my paper. For now, I'm just going to enjoy this nice beer buzz, and get my ass to sleep as soon as possible.
You know, cause I hate getting out of program.

La la la.

I'd like to start off with something witty, or something remotely interesting. Sadly, that I cannot do. I was smoking outside today, and was just singing whatever came to my mind. I thought that it'd be a cool thing to do, in order to become attuned with myself, melodically speaking. I guess it worked in a way, I just think that I'm still too static when it comes to finding a melody. It all sounds the same. Hopefully, as time goes by, I'll get better at it.
For some reason, I think I'm starting to like poetry. I think it's because that's what songwriting really is, poetry with a melody. Maybe I'm wrong but I read a couple of lines from a T.S Eliot poem, and I found myself trying to put a melody to it. It's a big possibility that I'm going to start reading poetry from now on.
I've been going to bed at the wrong hours lately, and I'm getting pissed at that. I hate being off program, it derails my entire day. Ugh, it's all good though, the semester's almost over, so I think that I can get some more sleep if really needed it. As long as I don't start sleeping at five a.m. again.
You know, cause I did that for almost two years.

I wonder...

First off, I'd like to apologize for not posting yesterday. And now, I realize how no one really reads this shit but me. you finally got it right for once. Shut it. Anyhow, have you ever gotten that feeling that you're meant to be something? Something more than just what you are at this moment? I don't know, I have that vision for myself. I don't think it's vanity, I just think that that's how it might possibly be. This might also be a giant mistake because someday, I'll realize how wrong I was, and fall into a depression. I always was, and always will be, and optimist though. No matter what, I still have these self inflicted images of grandeur. Whatever. I can't wait to get a band started, make things happen, get the wheel turning. Because no matter how much you wish, nothing's going to happen, unless you make it happen. Man, I'm still confused though, as much as I was a couple days ago. It's only because I'm unsure of everything. No, scratch that, I'm impatient is what it is. Impatient for the things to come. Doesn't really matter what's going to happen; all the matters is that something happens. I just dislike the present. Yeah, that's an accurate way of putting it, I suppose.
You know, cause it hits the point.

Oh bla di.

Man, I've been getting lazier, and lazier as the days go by. I even got a word to associate with this syndrome, senioritis! I picked it up from this guy I have a philosophy course with. I just hope that I can pull out of it soon because I just hate having things pile up, and they have already begun to do so. On the songwriting topic, I feel as if I'm getting better and better at doing it, it just takes more effort to actually do it for some reason. I'll get the hang of it though.
You know, cause eventually, I always do.